What a wonderful world!!!

Sometimes i wonder...what is a world? Is it round or flat? or Is it mine or is it yours???
I don't know that....
When i was a child, I was shown a globe and told that it is the earth. my world...it is the place i live in, India is my country, orissa is my state, cuttack is my city etc.....
I used to wonder, if this was the world for me then it must be the same for my parents, my neighbours, my friends and everyone around me .Similarly, It must also be the same for people living in different parts of the world.

Now if the world is same for everyone, then why is there so much of fight!!, so much of quarrel!!, so much violence!! so much of anger, animosity and jealousy???
Why ??Why??...
Why do people tend to kill each other?...
Why they fight for silly reasons?....
Why they can't share and live peacefully?...
Why do they quarell and why do they offend each other?....
Why are they thirsty for each others blood?....
Why is it so???
I don't know ...I didn't know the answer earlier and I don't know that now also.... and I may not get to know it till my death.........

Sometimes when i see my friends or my family quarrel like dogs and cats for reason as silly as ever....
I feel like killing myself....

I feel as if I am sinking in a sceptic tank....

I feel restless............................................
For I can't do anything about that other than watching helplessly.with hopeless eyes.....

Seriously its highly disgusting to see people close to u,, hurling offences and quarreling each other........... and it is even more painful to see them thrashing eachother and hurting eachother......................................
People who once used to laugh and cry together are now thirsty for eachother.............................................. It really hurts deeply man!!...Very deeply!!!
Somewhere deep beneath you,,,,something dies a bitter death....and u cannot do anything about it!!!!!

I don't know why I feel so,,,But I believe that ..Somewhere inside,,I am a different kind of person.
A person who believes that our world is round in shape, nearly the shape of our heart.
The world which is made up of our dreams, our fantasys and our imaginations......
The world which is made up of our aspirations and our beliefs...............................
U know...our world is not the earth or the country that we live in. It is the small cocoon of our imaginations, our dreams, our theories and our beliefs. And because of these small small cocoons that exist within us, we see the environment around us in a different way.These coccons form the basis of our environments..our country ..and our world.......And infact these small small coccons are the world in reality. ..These cocoons create the world around us which we see with open eyes...The world around is round nearly the shape of human heart because it ends from where it starts.....And u know it meets its starting point at somepoint of time........We get what we give!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Every indivisual human being is a single world in himself, and the nucleus of this world is the human heart..which pulsates within us..The heart hs been the centre of evryones dreams, worlds, imaginations........It is this heart that spins the coccons and builds the world around us.
Now what we see, what we feel, what we tell is the effect of the world that our heart built around us. And we start living in self built hearts...far away from other worlds,,,far way from the ground realities that exist beyond our little worlds.......

When we start associating ourselves to material things around us, we think that its our own property and belongs to us only...These small thoughts provides the start of the existence of borders, regions, countries and the rest of crap.
And when any human being fails to acknowledge the existence of another human in vicinity, the cocoon inside him compels him to rebel and thats proves to be the point of an small ignition, and this small ignition starts the small fire of minor quarrels and the quarrels aggravate it takes the form wars, violence etc.........And end result,,,many lives are wasted and many beautiful worlds are destroyed even before its conception.....Painful isn't it,,,,It is my friend !!!!!
History has witnessed this War of Worlds since the evolution of Mankind and this clash will continue to exist even after my existence...No one can do anything about it....

If people realize that they are the world in themselves and they have to live with the other small worlds around,,,,
If people could realize that as they have their dreams, their imaginations,,similary other people also have their dreams too....
If people could realize that they all could live in a way so that they do not hamper the dreams of others............
If people could realize that they are not alone in this World....There are people around and all of them are different...in many ways...
Then maybe this clash would cease someday!!!!!...
Then maybe there would not be these sort of violence someday!!!..

Then may be someday these small worlds would coalesce into a bigger world,
A world of which would big enough to accomodate everyones dream and everyone aspirations ,,,,
A world which would belong to everyone,,and everybody,,,
A World full of of peace , prosperity and oppurtunity and moreover a world without quarrels and wars,,,,
AWorld full of happiness and tranquility,,,,
just think .. ...How would it be!!!!!!
And then someday we would be showing our children the globe and telling him
"This is your World dear!!!"
And that day the sentence might have some meaning..
What a World it would be...
And Indeed then we all would say
What a wonderful world!!!!!!

Hope my wish comes true!Amen.........

Mirage!!!

What is a mirage??
Is it an unfulfilled desire???
Or a figment of one's desparate imagination......
Or is it an illusion that the nature plays on a limping soul????

I don't know what it is....But I definitely feel it does exist, not only on the dead deserts but also on our personal lives.....
When any desire takes a shape of an obssesion and that obsession eludes u for a long time....It takes the form of an Mirage.....An illusion that our mind creates on our scouring eyes.......
It does have serious repurrcussions. it starts taking ur mind, ur life and the moments from u...

Then how should we escape from such mirages???..
Well the answer lies within us..Our innerself.
We have a world in us,,,The only thing that we have to do is to,,cover our eyes from the sandy storm and look into ourselves.....Look inside and think who we are, what we want, and what we are doing?

Are we mere objects of desire? Or Are we Puppets to worldly charms? Does our life end if we miss a ship or train?,

NO certainly we not objects!!.. We are much more than that......we are not figments of imagination... We are much more than that...We are a world in ourselves....We are the sun for some solar system... And feel Proud about that....



Feel these and open your eyes....U will see that the storm has vanished, but u r still in the middle of the desert. But things are different now,,,u can see u r path now very clearly. And we can walk with renewed spirit and energy a spirit which will cross the entire desert at one go!!!

A Nostalgia called Home!!!!!...Vol1

A House is made of bricks,,
but a Home is made of Hearts!!!!

Last month I had an oppurtunity to travel to my Native!!!
A place where my HOME is located...
A place where I had spent most of my childhood...
A place where my heart lies........
For people like us,,,who are working miles away from Home,,,away from their families and relatives...
"Going HOME" is a cherished oppurtunity..
An oppurtunity which is your colleagues envy, and owners pride!!
Yes, it came to me after a whole 8 months!!!!
It was an oppurtunity to me...
An oppurtunity of Life Time................................................


At around 3.30 am,,,,,,,I woke up to the smell of familiar freshness....
the freshness of the fresh air of the river Mahanadi.....
The river which proudly flanks my city......
The river which has grown with me.......
The River which missed me,,,,,,
And now it was now greeting me!!!
I jumped up from my bogey and peered out thru the window!!!.
It was dark outside with a few odd lightings.....
The city was still asleep......but not its charm....
I cud feel it...
I cud feel my city. It was my place...my native...and my HOME.

A feeling of owness gripped me!!!
As if u are seeing someone, close to your heart, right infront of u!!!! and that too after a decade.
God it is the same!!.... the same old place,,the same old city......
My heart melted in my eyes...


I cud not believe i was back to the same city!! The city, i once hated !!!....the city, i once wanted to leave, badly!!!...the city i had left........
And yes,,, Iam back.. to the same city. My city!!...

Baba and Mamuna had cum to receive me!!!!

I cud see them from a distance..waving at me.....Ahh My family was there to receive me,,,,,,

Wasn't I glad to be back among them!!!! yes...man,,,,I was... i was damn glad....

The city hasn't changed since then....

Same roads,,same building,,same trees,,,,same posters.....and the same familar curves.....They were all the same....Nothing has changed......But something has changed.....What???

Probably it was me!!!

The Auto chugged past familar lanes...to a familar destination... my heart was pounding in excitement.....How will it be????I had almost forgotten it.....

And then,,I saw it!!.my kennel,,,my shed,,,my place...my HOME...

It was the same!!...It was as fresh as it was when I left it....standing tall with its old dignity and warmth....

And at its doorstep, stood my mama...,, anxiously...waiting 4 me!!!!!

I rushed towards her and grasped her in my arms...

I felt safe..I felt relaxed..I felt satisfied... I knew I was back....

Months of rigidness melted in a few secs....

I knew I was HOME!!!

to be contd...

Romance!!

Once in school,,our English teacher asked us a question,
"What is Romance?"
Everyone started giggling....
But Mr. Das being a stern teacher, immediately stood up and spoke out one his immortal quotes "Romance is an art of seeing the world through a kaelidoscope".
"Romance is the feeling that transforms a human to a more humane with heart. "
Everyone started to laugh...including me.....we were teens then.

But now 10 yrs down the lane and after numerous crushes and blushes ,,,,
I guess i can now comprehend the real meaning behind those words.....
Those words, carry a deep meaning!!
A meaning much deeper than most of us can imagine....
As its is said, that it requires the depth of ocean to measure the intensity of sea water..
Similarly, one's heart has to be deep enough to understand the real meaning of Romance...
To me Romance has a different meaning...
To me..............................
"Sitting down a lovely evening alone beside a river, seeing it flow endlessly ,,,and feeling a deep sense of satisfaction beneath u" is a romantic feeling...

"Listening to Kenny G 's Jasmine flower or Going Home,,,,alone in dark room...and feeling urself in a totally different world " is romantic feeling........

"Sitting down....beside someone,,,,someone who understands u,,,,,saying nothing at all for hours together ....and not knowing,,,how the hours passed by...is a feeling...A Romantic Feeling!!!!!

"Watching the clouds sail by as if waving their hands to you and the feeling the breeze whisper as it blows by you and feeling the whole nature is smiling at you !!! ".....is a romantic feeling....

And the list goes endless....

The meaning of romance differs from people to people,,,
some people think that when a boy and a gal move around together ,,,or they are in deep love, thats romance!!!
Ya,,,They are rite!!! thats romance.. Becoz if they are in love,,they start seeing things in a different view..The world appears colourful to them and thats wat a romance is...
seeing the world through colorful glasses..


some people think work is their romance,...
They are also rite!!!..In fact, in their work they find a kind of solace.... a solace ,,that makes their world beautiful and interesting...To some it may appear boring..But to them, its heaven... its romance...

Having you seen a child playing!!!Gleefully the child holds something and plays with it..
Now isn't that a romance!!!

A hobby is a romance,, a passion is romance,, a devotion is a romance,,,even a murder is a romance to a murderer...for he finds a kind of satisfaction or fulfilment,,that is mostly unseen by justice!!!;) ((sadist comment!!sorry)...
From cradle to Grave human life is full of romance.....
sadness is romance,happiness is romance,luv is romance ,passion is romance... everything is a romance.
So thats why many say that the world is a romantic place and everything in it is full of romance!!

Look around urself and try to find person who isn't having a romance....
Hardly u will find anyone.
My dear,,,
The World is flat,,,,but feelings are round!!!
Just wear something,,,,and look around!!!
Everywhere you will see,,,,that ROMANCE is found!!!

And yes,,this is also romance to me
Aren't you Romantic???

Dreamz Unlimited..

It is said that we humans have dreams, dreamz which make us live life....
I do have certain dreams, some thoughts that i see thru my open eyes!! Dreams that i live for..Dreams of acheivemnt.. Dreams of doing something...Dreams of building something....
But,,,Reality as it is always said is different!! It is hardto believe but its true,,,,Few are lucky whoes dreams become reality,,, But for a few Reality Bites.. !!
For me the Reality appears to be miles and miles away from my distant dreams...I find myself standing in an endless desert of ground reality and searching for my lone oasis of dreams ,,,but what i get really is mirages!!!!!.

It hurts me very much to wake up everymorning and realise that i am at the same place i was months back...The only things that has changed is the days of an old calendar that hangs on my shelf and my salary in my salary slip!!!
My future as it appears to me is like a big blackhole which wud some day engulf my world of dreams and each distant day i find myself being pulled towards the blackhole...................

But,, I still carry on and on,,, with the music of Yanni, BryanAdams, Elton John, Kenny G to soothe my restless spirit and tame it to the mundane world.. These music instill in me the seeds of life ....seeds of hope ....a drop of energy and I stand up again and again start as a nomad traversing along the winding and entwining roads of life towards an unknown destination....towards an unknown future ahead.!!!!!...
But,,,Throughout this tiring journey I carry along with me a bag!!!!
A bag full of dreams!!!.. Infact a bag full of my own dreams!!!.
A bag of DREAMZ UNLIMITED!!!!!
And believe me ...
it makes me live life!!!

Tales of Bangalore!!

This is not exactly a tale of bangalore,,,, but a tale about my experiences at b'lore.
I have come from cuttack, a city in ORISSA. It is called the Silver City due to its silver filgree work. But, moreover it is a city with a heart. A city flanked by two major rivers, flowing endlessly n eternally. The city full of natural scenaries, yummy eatables, spiritual temples and moreover the city where my family live espescially my "mama". God, i haven't seen 'her' for 7 months. Previously I used to fight and quarrel with her a lot but now i miss her dearly.

When I came to b'lore on Dec 1st 2004. I was awe struck on seeing the Intel building,Diamond District. I thought man,,,this is my destination!!. Then the MG road , Brigade road, BloreCentral, Forum all struck high cords in me. But, internally i was a nature boy, I loved trees, rivers and scenic beauties. I started feelin nostalgic about my place. I started missing my river side "KHATTI", My friend circle, innocent but heartening. I felt blore had nothing in it thats called a natural beauty.

My ideas proved wrong,,,
May be i hadn't seen the other side of b'lore.
Once I happened to walk by the streets of indiranagar II phase one hot after noon. And guess what happened, I started feeling cold. I looked around to see ,, the whole place filled with dense trees. All forming a canopy,, a canopy enough to hold back the hard rays of sun. I felt happy to see trees around me. I looked around to find the entire strech filled with trees on both sides. I said to myself " Yes,This is a city in the lap of nature". May be this is what is called "BANGALORE"
The streets of malleswaram, BTM, Mekhri circle and the streets near IISC., reminds me of LONDON streets,(as seen on TV). I felt i had arrived to a different planet.
Away from the dusty streets, traffic jammed roads, and high buildings. In to the lap of nature. These green patches always rejuvnate and makes me live life. I don't know why?,, but, It happens so!!

Even sometimes a walk from Kodhihalli to Kemp fort along the concrete pavement in evening is worth a lifetime experience. Provided u r withsomeone special, or atleast someone who understands u.

Really B'lore is heartening and happenening. It has everything for everyone, but u need to find it out.
But,,I still miss my place. hope i get to visit it soon!!!

Blogging gets legalized!!!!

Hey,,,
Good news guyz!!! Finally Indian Govt has woken off its deep slumber.
As mentioned in news today Govt is finally opening its corriders to blogging. Read this url to know about it.
http://infotech.indiatimes.com/articleshow/1112513.cms.
Maybe, Govt realizes that it is in middle of sycopants and hypocrites(personas), so it needs a serious debates or views about is policies. Who knows they may be just showing an red erring and grinning at our backs as we grope for it....
It is sad 2 know that 2 bugets have been passed in the house of parliament undebated!!.It depicts the sorry state of Indian Parliament.
Is this the road to the peridition that is INDIA is heading to..

I feel sorry that I voted 4 someone this time. A perso who has no sense of duties .A person who is nothing but an Idiot,,,,
Next time i wud make sure that i don't ink my finger for a person like this...
My vote doesn't count nemore,,,,whether i vote or not.Idiots like these get elected each time. And what we get is evident from the news or from the live coverage of parliament.
And as per Indian Law nuturing a criminal is a criminal activity itself.
In the same way I have all rights to be called an IDIOT...
Next time iwud make sure I do not feel like an Idiot...

Regards